so much has happened................

i don't evn kno where to start. really. haha.

almost October / "a year goes by"

so sad, so disappointed.

Another Work "Thing"

Different job, same damn problem.

Even More In Love With Him

"i don't want to love you now if you'll just leave one day"

• She's Just Not That Into You •

T likes me. I like C. And who the hell knows whats going on in C's mind. Not feeling the situation. So T texts once or twice a day, calls me 'baby' (how original), isn't that funny, which is VERY important to me, and hes like 28 years old. An okay guy, I suppose, just not the guy I'm looking to get with. To be honest, hes too available to me. I mean we don't want the one thats easy to get, haha. At times, it feels like that line in the movie The Heartbreak Kid:

Who the hell do you think you are?! Thinking of reasons not to marry her.

I don't know anything worse than this guy liking me and feelings aren't the same. Then with the object of my desire, it isn't going good at all. Its tripped out and I hate it. *sigh* Back to T, he's just not understanding that he's not appealing to me in "that way." I mean, it sucks for him the same way it sucks for me w C. But what else can I do? Its a f**ked cycle. Haha.

hint- TESLA

LWFAW

♥ fr: "work"

I guess to be completely honest I'd have to say that I never thought that I'd like being with some one else, hug some one else, lay with some one else, but one night all that just went away. True, it didn't work out quite like it should've have. Back in the dating game, & guys are still dogs. I guess somewhere I forgot about all the hit it and quit it, the person that just kicks it with you for one night or something. But this guy, i don't know if he's a good guy or not. He certainly seemed like it, but thats what playing around gets you, it gets you good at playing people. The one good great thing to come from this is that the inconceivable happened. I thought about being with some other person. And it felt good to be with him and have him hold me. That was the highlight of that experience. Gosh, I mean I liked him last summer and then that happened. Great night. I guess well see what happens w C.